And on it goes

Day 5 of Cymbalta, and not much has changed. I've not slept well again, about four hours. I went to bed a little later than normal and then listened to my audiobook for 2 hours. I'd downloaded a relax/meditation app from iTunes and that seemed to help me go to sleep. Prior to that I kept tossing and turning, with this my body became calmer.

I did my chores this morning,which were pretty up to date. I laid down awaiting my groceries. Once they'd arrived and were packed away I put on my jammies and snoozed for a couple of hours. By the time I went to Daisy's I felt good. Even better for the fact I fitted into my Jag jeans, which I've not been able to wear for months. Suzy came tonight, which was lovely. I'd wanted to prepare some card making ideas, I want to colour with my Copics but instead I just played with some patterned papers, a new punch Karen bought and made a few gift cards. Nothing elaborate, but pretty enough. I enjoyed playing and chatting. I actually ate some dinner which was delicious and only a portion of what I'd normally eat which I'm ecstatic about. Karen had made her Easter Egg slice. I had a small piece and it was decadent. I'm so pleased I didn't take any home. I honestly don't know what's gotten into me lol...me refuse slice!!!!

I had a lovely night, and enjoyed the company of my friends. One of whom is very sad at the moment, and I really felt for her last night and have been thinking of her all day today. I'm sitting in my owl pyjamas she bought me for my birthday and thinking of her.

Day 6 (I think)
I got about three and a half hours sleep, awoke, and listened to my meditation on my iPhone, and I dozed off again, so I was happy about that. Bunny came in for a cuddle and then called me for a cooked breakfast of brewed coffee, a poached egg on a delicious wholegrain bread...... I ate a couple of mouth fulls of egg and drank half a coffee and I was full. Mickey sat beside me and ate two eggs and toast!! He'd already had cereal too.

I felt weary in the afternoon, laid down with my audiobook but didn't sleep which is good. I don't want to sleep in the afternoon, but some days I've just hit a wall and have had no choice. I got up and coloured in Pokemon pictures with Mickey which was lovely. Billy-Joe and Bunny went to play golf, so the house was quiet, with just the three of us.

I am feeling good. My head hasn't been cloudy today, and while my feet are still cold in the evening and I sweat profusely, I think it's easing a bit. I don't know whether it's my imagination or not, but I'm feeling I have a bit more patience with the kids, like I used to have when I only had one child lol....... It's either that or the less stress from not working full days, is helping this come back. I'm not sure, but I'm not questioning it. The last few days I've been very quiet, but I feel peaceful. Even with the ratty sleep patterns this transition has been much better than last time. Having the peace and quiet to be able to lie down is a huge plus. Even when the kids are all home, I can lie down and they are quiet and well behaved.

It feels funny being home on a Friday night, can't remember the last time I did that, probably last Good Friday.

I'm looking forward to spending the weekend with my family and hope my friends have a wonderful Easter too.

Day 4 Cymbalta and other random ramblings

I'm going to have to investigate something to help me sleep. I'm basically going to bed at the moment, because that's what you do at night time. I went to bed just after 11 because I felt quite weary. I'd been talking to Karen on the phone which was nice. Phone conversations in a quiet household are actually really pleasant lol....... No one needed us and we could hear!!

To bed at 11, still awake at 1am. I didn't want to listen to my book, it's nearing the end and I know it's going to be exciting. Reading that is not conducive to sleep. I thought that surely, once my feet warmed up I'd be able to sleep. I awoke before 5am and went out and spoke to Peter for a bit. He was stunned to see me lol......

Feel a bit jaded this morning but not too bad. I hope the sweating and the cold feet (and nose) abates today......

I've had a busy morning. Have dusted, washed, thrown stuff in the dryer and hung some things out (the perpetual optimist)!! Yes, that's right, it's raining yet again. Fortunately my line is totally under cover, so things do have a chance if the rain holds off for a few hours at least. Ironing done, washing machine cleaned out. Updates for Mac OS X downloaded and installed.

Actually don't know how I've managed to download those updates. My internet usage is high again this month, so all big downloads are happening in the morning, during my 'off peak' time. The updates were a half a GB, so I've done that already. My internet, however is painfully, painfully slow. I'm wondering if Optus have slowed me down because I'm leaving to go to another ISP, and they've effectively turned off my DSL connection......or turned it 'down' to dial up speed.......I can't work with that, can't even use it. You ever tried to access Facebook at dial up speed?? I've got work to do on the 'net, thank goodness I've got my mobile USB modem. I couldn't even use iChat with my normal connection, and that peeved me most of all. I've got my modem in bridge mode, using my time capsule as the router. I don't want to change all the settings just to ring Optus only to be told, yes I've been shut down, although I don't understand that.

4.00pm
Internet, seems fine now. Something is definitely going on, because it was painfully slow last night and then it was good this morning for a bit. If they've put the brakes on me, then it wouldn't go back up again. I"m glad now I didn't waste precious time by ringing.

I've felt pretty lousy today. I've had a headache since this morning, which pain meds haven't touched. I dozed for just over an hour in the middle of the day, I was exhausted and couldn't keep my eyes open when I sat down to the computer to do some site work.

I got up and with the slow USB modem, I did some Daisy work, it was painfully slow too, don't know what was up with that, the speeds are normally good. I got nearly all the Jenni Bowlin stuff up that Suzy mentioned to me last week. I did Cosmo Cricket and Crate Paper yesterday, so this week hasn't been too bad so far.

Dinner is spaghetti bolognese, but I don't feel like that. Don't know if I'll have anything, or if I'll just have pesto with my pasta instead. At this stage, I could easily have nothing.

I'm going to have another lie down......so so tired.

Day 3 Cymbalta

I didn't go to bed until nearly midnight last night. I stayed up and finished my book. I'm so glad I did. It didn't take too long and I fell asleep. I still didn't get enough sleep last night, but it was much better. I didn't have any dinner last night, I couldn't stomach anything. I just had a cup of tea.

This morning I went without breakfast as I had to fast for a blood test. I had a bowl of cereal when I got home.

My feet aren't as cold so far today, but they were earlier, even my nose was freezing. I'm sweating a lot more too. It's a comfortable 24 degrees and parts of me are feeling cool and the rest of me is sweating.

I'm looking forward Easter more now, and feeling better about it. I'm tolerating these new meds thus far much better than any change over before. I'm a little tired, but that's to be expected.

Izzy was spayed yesterday. She's doing very well. I'm amazed at how quickly she's recovered. She was outside today, and didn't even mope around yesterday after she came home, she wasn't groggy at all. Even animals recover quicker from surgery these days to what they used it.

Day 2 Cymbalta.....continued

Picture this. It's a warm day. I'm wearing a singlet and a pair of shorts, the fan is on, I'm sweating and........wearing thick socks!!!! My feet are still soooo cold!! On consulting Dr. Google, I did find this can be a side effect....... I hope it goes away, as I hate cold feet, especially in summer!!!

Day 2 Cymbalta

Suffice to say I won't be going to bed at my normal time tonight. It was almost 1am and I was still awake. I woke up far too early too. My 25 hour audio book is getting read a lot quicker than I expected. Normally I can listen to my book for about 20-40 minutes depending on how tired I am. I'm making myself turn it off after two and a half!! I may as well get up if I can't sleep. I can always do some work, or read.

I did a good amount on my web site and popped in and saw my parents this morning. It was lovely seeing them and my Dad paid me a pretty awesome comment as he said I'd lost some weight. That made my day!

I had a nap this afternoon for about 30 minutes. I don't know how wise it was, but four a night sleep three nights in a row, can't be good, although I'm amazed how I don't feel dead on my feet. I'm very thirsty on the new tablets and I'm not hungry. I'm cooking Chilli Con Carne for dinner, and I won't be having anything.I've got enough condition on me lol, so it won't hurt.

Billy-Joe is playing union further up the coast and thank goodness dear Bunny is going to pick him up, they won't be home until about 6.30pm. The littlies can eat earlier.

Izzy was spayed today. She's very happy to be home, and is surprising me by walking around. Mickey was shocked when he saw her shaved area and the scar. He turned away and I thought he was going to cry. It didn't look bad at all. There's no coloured disinfectant on it and the scar is one a human would be happy to have. Ah well it's another lesson, along with explaining what she actually had done. She was on heat, and thankfully not pregnant. It wouldn't have made any difference if she was pregnant, but it's nice to know I've not aborted anything.

I'm looking forward to Easter - I think. I"m not sure how I'll be feeling, and at the moment, sitting somewhere quietly sounds like a really nice idea..... On Saturday I want to go and see Peter's parents and then on Saturday night I'll be at my parents' house. On Sunday my parents will come to us for lunch. So it's a busy weekend ahead. My brother will be here with is wife, so that's special as we've not seen him since Christmas.

Day 1 Cymbalta

I had another so so night. Mickey and Billy-Joe wanted to 'camp' out in the front yard (our backyard, while large, has no flat area, the front pocket is the only flat treeless area).

We enjoyed our nice dinner and I took myself to bed at 10pm. I didn't think I'd make it that late considering my state of not enough sleep. I listened to my audio book, and it was midnight, before, still wide awake I turned off my iPhone. I got up twice to check on the kids, the yobboes up the road were having a party and were parked on the road and were noisy........so every time I heard a noise closer, I checked. Then the cherubs in their eternal wisdom came inside just after 6.30am. I'd just been awoken by Billy-Joe's alarm!!!! I dozed for a bit and then got up to a cooked breakfast. By this time I was as cranky as hell. The kids know to be quiet when they are up. Normally they are really good, but considering they'd got up so early, the quiet wore off far too soon. Three of them in Billy-Joe's room is okay when all is calm but not when they start getting restless. The downside of a tiny house, there is nowhere quiet, but I do prefer them in the lounge.....ah well. I'm lucky I can lie in though.

I enjoyed my deliciously cooked breakfast, of scrambled eggs on toast with fresh parsley and chives, juice and brewed coffee. I took my first pill. It's an hour lady and I don't feel good. The dark mood has increased, the head is foggy and my mouth tastes like crap and is dry.

In between having breakfast and getting organized, I've had to supervise kids putting the tent away. Funny how they're all keen to put it up, (which I basically did lol) but you have to harangue them to bring everything inside. It rained in the night (what's new) and some of their stuff got wet. I've hung a load out, and am questioning my wisdom as it's teeming again!!! So over this rain! The dams have been overflowing for weeks now, so I know no one in this region is disadvantaged if it doesn't rain for the time being.

I hope I get some work done......I may have to forgo my pay and take the time off. I'll see how I go though, because I don't want to do that. If I keep everything else really quiet, and I don't feel any worse, I should still get there.