Easter Monday

As a family it would be so nice if we could have more holidays. I know I'm lucky to have school holidays off with the kids, but it's so nice to have dear Bunny home too. Mind you, he's been dreadfully busy mowing half the street, (he looks after the yards of the two old ladies across the road), plus ours, so that's several hours of work, included in that, he whipper snips and prunes our garden, so it looks gorgeous. Had to have it lovely for Easter Sunday. With all the rain we've had of late, everything is looking so healthy, lush and green.

It's been so nice to just chill out together. I went outside for a bit and pottered in the garden and then threw the footy to Mickey. You always know how much stuff like that means, when you're told 'You're the best Mum in the world'. Actually I've seen a personality shift in Mickey of late, and it's for the better. He's becoming a very caring little boy. He's becoming a child who is thinking of others and not just himself. He knows I've had problems sleeping and asks me every single day how I slept. At the end of a school day he always asks me how my day was, because I always ask them. Ever since Izzy was ill, he asks after her every afternoon too. When I got up on Sunday morning, all the shoes from the front door were put away, mine were neatly placed outside my bedroom door and the mat I use at the door was straightened out neatly. Mickey had done that, without being asked. He's the one who goes outside when Bunny is doing yards, to see what he can do to help. When I was changing my medication and knew I'd be feeling a bit fragile for a bit, I told both Mickey and Billy-Joe, and they've been so sweet to me. Sammy, alas is still too egocentric, and I didn't pull him aside. He'd not understand and I don't want to scare him.

On that note, I'm amazed at how well I actually feel. I'm still not sleeping, last night I got up at 2.15am, stayed up for an hour and a quarter and then went back to bed and slept well until 8.30am. I get moments during the day where I don't think I can keep my eyes open. Sometimes I get up and do something, or else I'll just close my eyes for 15 minutes. I'm going back to my GP tomorrow, and it will be interesting what she says. I know she'll probably want to increase the dosage, as what I'm on now is the start dose.

I feel different within myself. I am quietly excited and very happy about it. I feel as though I have more patience and I'm much calmer. I don't feel like everything is a hassle or a big deal. Even though I'm not sleeping well, I get up in the morning happier than what I did before. I normally wake up on the weekend, and secretly wish I could just hibernate there all day long.....not good!

I've been busy today, the washing was huge, but it's all done and inside now. Bunny listened to the races this afternoon in between pottering in the garden with me. Billy-Joe headed down to the park for a couple of hours with some friends.

I was going to do a layout today. I've got some photos I need to edit. When I get up in the night, I've been downloading a couple of free kids. I don't do a lot of free ones, because I usually don't end up using them , but every now and again I find something that's gorgeous, I guess I've just become more choosy and I know what I like.

I'm glad I've got the next few days off. I'd like to take the kids somewhere, pity everything costs so much. They've been playing outside all afternoon which is great. So nice that it's not raining and no longer so dreadfully hot. The weather has just been gorgeous.